Mamarazzi Boot Camp

Lately I have been feeling a little blue. Not down in the dumps, but just a little frustrated. I LOVE looking at other people’s blogs. But at the same time, I get discouraged, b/c I see how creative and talented and wonderful these people are and it just highlights in my mind how un-talented I am. I look at all the great things these people do and create and wish I had just a fraction of their creativity. But then I have to remind myself that I am a single Mom and don’t get to be a stay at home Mom like most (but not all) of these women. I am in NO WAY saying being a stay at home Mom is an easy job and that all they get to do is sit around and create crafts. I think in a lot of ways, their job is a lot harder than anything else.

Anyways, I have decided that instead of feeling sorry for myself or being jealous of their talents, I’m going to quit complaining and do something about improving my own talents. I signed up for an all day photography class for the first Saturday in March. I am giddy w/ excitement about being able to learn more about something I love from Emily & Stephanie, who are both amazing photographers. I have been wanting to take a class for a long time now, but just haven’t done anything to move in that direction. Well, not anymore. And next on my list of self improvement is to take a class on how to use Adobe Photoshop Elements.

I also have to remind myself that everything happens in seasons. I have come to ACCEPT (which is my word for the year) that right now it is my season to enjoy being a working single Mom. And hopefully someday I will get to come into the season of life where I have a husband that makes enough money for me to stay at home and raise my children and have time to focus more on sewing and creating and photographing and cooking. But for now, I’ll just do what I can to keep improving and learning, and enjoy the season of life I’m in now.

I Accept…

Today I had my first encounter with my word for the year…ACCEPTANCE.

• I accept that I have the cutest little girl ever and that this cute little girl loves to help me in the kitchen.  I had a hankerin’ for brownies and she was a good helper.  I learned that the key to good brownies is to undercook them by 2 minutes.
  
  
• I accept that people are going to let us down.  That sometimes they aren’t going to be what we want or need them to be.  Sometimes they end up being a wolf dressed in sheep’s clothing (N).  In some cases, we just have to write those people off and move on with our lives and never think of them again, b/c they’re not worth our time.
  
  
• I accept that it’s ok to take a risk and even though we may get rejected, it’s worth it b/c we’re living life to the fullest and not holding anything back.  Nothing risked, nothing gained, right?  Today I put myself out on a limb and things didn’t pan out the way I had hoped they would, but I have no regrets and am glad I did something to brighten someone’s day (M).
  
  
• I accept that sometimes I hate being alone.  I wish I had someone to love and be loved by.  But, I made the most of my evening and after Autumn went to bed, I went and took a long hot bath w/ my favorite bubble bath soap and listened to some Rascal Flatts music w/ the lights dimmed low.  I can’t remember the last time I took a bath and it was just what the doctor ordered.  After soaking for about 30 minutes, I got out and used my favorite lotion on my legs and arms and hands and feet.  I feel completely rejuvenated and will definitely take long hot baths more often.
  

There was a lot of acceptance that I had to do today, and some of it was a little hard to swallow, but I am a more fulfilled person b/c of it.