WHAT!?!?!?

***Jason Wynn Kemble left this week to go to Colorado for a week. He went there to meet all of his professors and other students that are going to be in his on-line classes. 2 days before he left he said he wanted Autumn and I to go with him. But we couldn't, b/c that's not enough notice for work and we hadn't made any arrangements of where we would stay, b/c Jason was just staying in the dorms on the college campus and I didn't know if he was going to have a roommate or not. Anyways, this whole week he would call me on his way to class and just say hi for a few minutes.

Last night I ended up having to work until almost midnight b/c one of the salesman brought in a sale really late. It was weird that Jason hadn't called me to say good night, so I called him on my drive back down to Provo (Mom is in town to help me watch Autumn and we are staying at Rufio's). Anyways, he didn't answer so I left a message and then called him again about 45 minutes later when I got home and was getting into bed.

This morning I woke up and was still worried that I hadn't heard from him at all. My mind started racing thinking of all the horrible things that could have gone wrong. Was he in an accident? Did he lose his phone and someone else was using it? I was so worried that I decided to get on-line and see if maybe someone else was using his phone. What I saw when I got on made me sick to my stomach. He had sent and received over 1,000 texts to the same number. We only have 200 text messages a month to use! My mind started reeling wondering what in the world was going on.

I tried not to panic and thought maybe it was just a fluke. I got brave and decided to call the number. It went to a voicemail that said, "Hi, this is Heidi w/ Mary Kay and I can't answer the phone right now..." I just hung up and LOST IT! I ran in and woke Mom up and told her about it. I just started bawling. I got so mad I dropped the F bomb for the first (and only) time in my life. I said, "What the F is going on?" I talked to Grandma and Mom about it and they said not to get so upset and just stay calm for Autumn's sake.

I called back the # and left a message pretending that I needed to order some Mary Kay products in hopes that this Heidi person would call me back. Mom and I packed up our stuff and headed back up to SLC to the apartment b/c she was leaving tomorrow to fly home. I got on the computer and logged into Jason's email and found a lot of things that made me even more sick to my stomach. I had worried the whole morning and then that evening I couldn't stand it anymore and sent her a text, b/c she hadn't called me back. I wrote in the text that my name was Lisa, I was married to Jason Wynn Kemble, that he has 4 kids, and that I'm not mad at her but to please give me a call. She called me in about 5 minutes and come to find out, she had no idea at all that he was married, had no idea that he had kids, and worst of all, she was there in Colorado with him!!! My heart just sank. She said that they had met online and I asked if they had ever kissed or had sex. She said they had made out a few times and had met at his brother's house in SLC. I almost lost it, b/c that means he was doing all of this while I was at work busting my butt to put food on our table! He also would have had to send Autumn w/ his brother Steven (heaven forbid) or someone else while he was making out w/ her, b/c she said there were never any kids there when she met up w/ him the few times she did.

She said she wasn't going to tell Jason anything about talking to me, and that she was going to go back into the dorms and just tell him her aunt wanted her to come sooner (she had family living in CO and that was part of the reason she went up to CO anyways). I told her I would appreciate it so I could still try and save my marriage. Anyways, Jason called me right after she left there (about 30 min after I got off the phone w/ her). He acted as if nothing was wrong and just asked if I was going to pick him up at the airport on Sunday. I asked him who Heidi was and he just blew it off and played dumb. I told him I saw all the texts on our phone bill and asked again who she was. He got mad and said he wasn't going to talk about it then and we could discuss it when he got home.

I didn't know what to do. My whole perfect world had just shattered! I was so glad Mom was there to take care of Autumn, b/c I was a complete wreck! Even typing this out a year and a half after the fact, it makes me sick to my stomach.

***I am going back and blogging about this day on 12/15/2008. I didn't blog about it at the time, b/c I wanted to work things out w/ Jason and didn't want to air my dirty laundry on my blog. But now that so much time has passed, I want to have a record of it for my history and record since my blog is like my journal. And I also want to share my story if it will help anyone else from getting hurt by Jason, b/c he has done this multiple times to multiple women.