I've been thinking about change a lot lately, and it is amazing to me how much can change in one small year. I take that back, it's amazing how much can change in just one month, one day, one hour or one moment. But the thing that got me thinking about this was looking back at the past 2 years and where I was at this time.
In August of 2005, I was living in Utah, renting my grandma's basement apartment and working at Prosper. I had moved from Texas to get a way from someone that I cared very deeply for, but knew I couldn't marry, so I had to put some distance between us. I was getting over him and just having fun being on my own, working, and hanging out with friends. Here I am at Temple Square picking up a member, Tanja Uzar, from Sloveinja who had come to go to BYU-Idaho.
Little did I know then that I was just down the street from the U of U, where my future husband was going to school and how drastically my life would change for the better in just one year. Fast forward to August of 2006.
In August of 2006, I had been married to Jason Wynn Kemble for 4 months, and was pregnant with little Autumn bottom. We flew down to Texas, drove up to Oklahoma to spend a few days with his family, drove back to Texas, and went on a cruise of the Carribean with my family. I was the happiest girl in the world and couldn't have asked for anything more. He was getting his Masters at the U of U, I was working, we were anxiously awaiting the arrival of Autumn in January, we would have his 3 kids over every other weekend, and we were poor but living on love and happiness.
And then something went terribly wrong. I don't know when this whole mess that changed my life started, and to be honest, I don't know why it happened. But my life came crashing in around me on June 16th, and I realized that life can change dramatically in just one little moment. I'll never forget that one little moment, b/c it felt like the weight of the whole world was pushing on my heart and I couldn't breathe, and my brain refused to even compute what I discovered. The person that mattered the most in the world to me had betrayed a trust and wasn't the person I thought he was. But rather than going into details I'll just move on to August of 2007.
In August of 2007, I have moved back to Texas, am living with my parents until I can get back on my feet, I have started my new job with Berrett Pest Control as the office manager, I am waiting for my divorce to be finalized, I am trying to piece the broken parts of my heart and my life back together, but most importantly, I have the MOST BEAUTIFUL baby on earth to love and cherish every single moment of every single day.
So looking back at August of 2005, if you had told me I would be married and pregnant one year later, I wouldn't have believed you. And if in August of 2006 you had told me that one year later I would be back in Texas living with my parents and getting a divorce, I really would have never believed you. So that just makes me stop and think what August of 2008 will hold for me and where I'll be and what will have transpiried in this coming year.
None of us really knows what Heavenly Father has in store for us in the next year, next month, next day, or even next moment. So I've learned to roll with the punches, make the most of what life's given you, and enjoy each and every second of happiness you have so that you'll be able to endure the hard times. I know I've said this before, but I really am so thankful to family, friends, and even strangers who have helped me so much.
As Jack on Titanic says in the toast he makes, "I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count." And then they all say in unison,
"TO MAKING IT COUNT!"
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5 comments:
Lisa I love that you still seem like an optimist despite the curve ball life has thrown at you. I love ya Foof- you eternal optimist!
I often think about things like that, and can always say that no matter what happens in the interim, you always need to keep striving to have a better today than yesterday.
My grandmother used to say that the rain passes and eventually the sun always comes out. It sounds better coming from an short, old Italian lady cooking in the kitchen, but you get the point. :)
Lisa, loved your post. I liked Sloane's quote but I thought of another one: "Birds sing after the rain, why shouldn't we"
Love ya girl and can't wait to see what next year brings. :o)
Hey Lisa,
i have to say that i loved the end of your post. TO MAKING IT COUNT. I no that things werent easy for you when this is happened but i must say i admire you strength love and compassion i wish that i could have been that way when my life crashed down into a million pieces.
Give stinky baby butt a kiss from me and i miss you so much dude. love u lots
You have been on an extreme journy these past 2 years. So good, some bad but in the end, I bet you wouldn't change a thing.
I always wantd to give you props for being strong and leaving your husband. He must have did something terrible but you are already walking towards brighter days with your baby.
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