What Did Your 1:30 AM Look Like?

Last night when we got home, Autumn went to bed & I watched a few episodes of What Not To Wear. Then I went and got in bed, but I couldn’t sleep. I had a lot on my mind about my dating life. I’ve had some highs and some lows. One of the things that was most upsetting about my divorce was knowing I’d have to go through all the dating games again. I’ve been out on a few dates w/ a few different guys in the past few months. It has been an interesting journey, and I have learned a lot about myself.

Anyways, one of the guys has been a little perplexing to me. I have talked to the girls at work about it, but still am not sure what M is thinking or why he’s doing what he’s doing. So, since I couldn’t sleep I went and got my book, “He’s Just NOT That Into You,” and read a few pages of it. I had a list of things I needed to get at the store that I’ve been carrying around in my purse for the past week, and I meant to go to WalMart on my lunchbreak sometime this week, but that never happened. So, I decided at 12:30 am to get out of bed, get dressed, and go to WalMart. I LOVE walking around WalMart late at night when there’s hardly any customers and I just have to share the aisles w/ the night workers who are there restocking. I bought the movie that was based on the book and came home an hour later.

I made myself an everything bagel w/ cream cheese (AH-MAZING) and put in my movie. I could tell my eyes were getting heavy and that I should go to bed, but I just couldn’t peel myself away from the movie. I needed to hear some of the things said in the movie. Finally at 3:30 my movie was over and I went and climbed into my bed and drifted off to sleep.

I wonder why M doesn’t call when he says he will. Is he just shy? I know he’s not good at communicating, but am I just making excuses for him? Should I quit texting him and wait for him to text me? Am I being too forward? Should I sit back and let the ball be in his court? Is he worried about getting hurt again? I know that he loves Autumn as if she’s his own, but maybe he doesn’t love the other 1/2 of the package deal (me). Or maybe, just maybe

HE’S JUST NOT THAT INTO ME!!!

I guess only time will tell…