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This past weekend has been full of emotions that I thought I had buried and was done with. I found out some more information about Jason, my ex. I guess it really shouldn't have surprised me, b/c he's hasn't changed at all from when we were married and was cheating on me multiple times with multiple people. But, I was still shocked and deeply saddened at the many things I found out this weekend. He's still out there ruining innocent people's lives and being irresponsible. I felt, and still feel, that it is my duty to warn anyone I can about him and the type of person that he is. Us girls need to stick together.

I know I should try and be "the bigger person" in the whole situation and just let go of all the anger and hate, but I have always been the nice girl when it comes to dealing with him and all it has gotten me is feeling used and abused. I am finally standing up for myself. I quit paying for his cell phone. I turned him into the Office of Recovery Services so now they can start taking Autumn's child support right out of his check. I didn't want to do that b/c I didn't want to take any money away from Mindi & the kids, but he had told me over and over that he would help me out and send me money. However, it has been over 18 months since I left him and I have yet to see a penny. So, I took matters into my own hands. I am finally going to make him responsible and accountable, b/c no one else in his life does.

He always does really bad things, ruins people's lives, and then when they find out and get mad at him, he blames it on them. Nothing is ever his fault. It's MY fault now that he is all alone and all the women he was dating (at the same time w/out knowing about each other) have left him. I GLADLY take that honor. I wish I could protect the whole world from him, but I can't. After people get mad at him he always calls and tries to apologize and say, "let's be nice and civil and friendly." I'm not taking those calls anymore. I'm not playing Miss Nice Ex-Wife anymore. As far as I'm concerned, he is only Autumn's Dad, and not even that very well since he hasn't seen her in almost a year. The last time he saw her, she was crawling and now she runs!

I know people may judge me for being so hateful and angry, and posting it on my blog for the world to see. But I'm trying to keep it real and post how I am really feeling, b/c this is my blog/journal/history of my life. Someday I'm know I will let it all go and be able to be nice and civil with him, but that day is not today. I just think it's incredibly unfair that he keeps having children he can't support and won't be there for, that he just keeps hurting innocent people and that he doesn't care and doesn't have a conscience about it and thinks that he is a good person (NOT!).

In every other aspect and area of my life, I am a fun and nice and good person. But when it comes to Jason and all the crap he has put me through and is putting other people through, that is where my protective mother bear instincts kick in. I become mean, rude, sarcastic, and even hateful. I should feel bad about that I guess, but I just don't. I can't wait for karma to come around to him and kick him flat on his butt.

Through this whole experience w/ Jason, I have been able to make some good friends that I hope to stay in contact with. I need to start a Jason's ex's club and have Mindi be the President, I can be the Vice President, and just hope that more women don't have to join that club, b/c there are already WAY too many members than there should be. No one should have to be hurt in the way that he hurts people. I wouldn't wish that kind of hurt and heartache on my worst enemy. When us girls join together, we are a force to be reckoned with and I just hope we can keep saving each other from the likes of Jason.

GO GIRL POWER!!!